When Waiting Sucks

Sometimes waiting just sucks.

We are in the middle of a lot of changes in our home. With my new job, our schedule has turned upside down…and it has been (at times) a rough adjustment for all of us. My husband has had to take on additional responsibilities while I work for a couple of hours in the afternoons when Eden is home from school. It certainly has not been easy.

In addition, we have been feeling/wading our way through another season of frustration in waiting for the next step. It seems to come in waves for us – periods of peace and trust in Gods timing and plan, and periods of frustration and feeling like we will never make it to step 2.

But the Word of God, my sweet brothers & sisters in Christ and worship music have all been a great blessing/comfort to me.

I posted this pic the other day on my instagram….it definitely shows me that our waiting period is for a purpose. “…waiting time is never wasted time.” MAN – God was pointing a finger right at me with that one!!!


The She Reads Truth study in Nehemiah has had a profound impact on me. I think the book of Nehemiah is a preview of what is to come for my husband and I when we finally move to Arizona. It has blessed and encouraged me so much – and I am so thankful.

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And while I know in my head that everything will be alright – that God has a plan and is working it out as we speak. Sometimes waiting just plain old sucks – and I have to work through these seasons of frustration through Gods word and through prayer. I am reminded of a very important verse that gives me strength:

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I have to believe. God is good. Amen.


How Do I Wait Well?

Waiting is hard.

I am in the midst of waiting in various areas of my life right now – professionally, spiritually, financially, in ministry…you name it. I am in a season of perpetual waiting.

And for the most part, I have handled it well. Recently, though, I have had some new stresses and additions to the waiting game that have made it feel much harder to remain content in the Lord. I have gone through all sorts of emotions and felt varying levels of frustration and even anger over it all.

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As someone who recently wrote a post to twenty-somethings about loving the questions, I can honestly tell you that I am failing this part of the (continual) test. I am completely annoyed by the fact that I don’t have the answers right now. I am the kind of person who reads the end of the book first; someone who likes to read the spoilers on movies and TV show endings. What I want is for God to move and make sense of the increased chaos and uncertainty around me.

I can, however, take comfort in this: regardless of how I feel, God is for me, not against me. He loves me. I can trust Him. I know for certain that He is using this as a means to teach me to trust Him. To have faith in Him. It isn’t easy for me and will continue to be a life-long struggle, to be sure. I may not always FEEL this…but I can trust His word. And I can trust Him based on past experience. HE IS FOR ME NOT AGAINST ME.

What about you, friends? Are you in a season of waiting? Do you feel like you’re in chaos and desperately want to know the answers? Are you confused?  Please feel free to e-mail me or message me on twitter with some specific prayer requests, or even comment here with them. I think we can support each other through this in prayer.

Here are some verses for those of you going through the same thing – may they be an encouragement to you as they have been to me:

“Let us hold tightly without wavering to the hope we affirm, for God can be trusted to keep his promise.”- Hebrews 10:23

“But if we look forward to something we don’t yet have, we must wait patiently and confidently.” – Romans 8:25

“Yet I still belong to you; you hold my right hand. You guide me with your counsel, leading me to a glorious destiny. Whom have I in heaven but you? I desire you more than anything on earth. My health may fail, and my spirit may grow weak, but God remains the strength of my heart; he is mine forever.” – Psalm 73: 23-26

“But those who trust in the Lord will find new strength.They will soar high on wings like eagles.They will run and not grow weary.They will walk and not faint.” – Isaiah 40:31

“For the Lord your God is living among you.He is a mighty savior.He will take delight in you with gladness.With his love, he will calm all your fears.He will rejoice over you with joyful songs.”  -Zephaniah 3:17

And one that is hard, but needed in times like this:

“But giving thanks is a sacrifice that truly honors me.If you keep to my path, I will reveal to you the salvation of God.” – Psalm 50:23

A song that can encourage you, too….

Why “Waiting With Joy?”

When I was thinking of a name for my blog, I had several ideas. My original idea was “song of joy,” because that is what the name Carrie means (ironic, right?? – since I am a worship leader!). That domain name was taken, so I took that as a sign.

Then “waiting with joy” popped into my head. Waiting has been the theme of my life for many years, as has the idea of finding joy in the midst of life’s frustrations. The more I marinated on it, I came to find that this name perfectly encompassed everything about me and where I am in my life at this time…..and it perfectly explains what God has been trying to teach me.

You see, many times our timetable for our lives does not match God’s time table. And oftentimes, we get short-sighted, frustrated and even angry at God. We might even feel as if God has forgotten us or abandoned us. But I have found in the recent years that we can choose Joy throughout life’s uneasy or difficult situations. And choosing Joy can make the journey that much more fulfilling. It doesn’t mean its easy, but it is definitely worth it.

Are you struggling with feeling like you are in the “waiting room of life?” And like the doctor’s office, you feel that God might not ever call on you? I have been there. Keep on trusting. Choose Joy. God has not forgotten you. He loves you.

May this verse bless you today as it blessed me….

Psalm 16:11 (NLT):

“You will show me the way of life,
granting me the joy of your presence and the pleasures of living with you forever.”

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{Photo Credit: Krista Wilbur, www.kristaonpurpose.com}


Director of The Malachi Network - Pastor of Avalon Beach Church "Rethinking Church, Releasing Leaders, Remaining Faithful"


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